One step forward, two steps back

This week has been quite the eventful one...we got a call from our social worker, she asked if we would like to be considered for two little girls, a two year old and a one year old.  I wanted to scream, "YES!!!!" But, instead, I calmly replied, "Let me run it by my husband first to see how he feels about two little girls.  I'll call you back in a few minutes."  I hung up the phone, said a quick prayer and called Joseph.  In my calmest, sweetest voice I proceeded to ask how his day was so far.  "Oh, Federal inspectors are there today?  They only visit every five years!  Wow, okay I'll pray for you guys....they are going to interview you on building codes? Oh, yeah?!  Well, I'll make something special for dinner tonight to celebrate how well you're going to do.  I know you'll great!  Ok, well I know you're busy now so I'll let you go.  Ok, Honey!  Have an amazing rest of the day!  I love you too!"  I hung up the phone, ughhhhh, dang it!  I didn't ask him, the truth is I already knew how Joseph felt about two, he didn't want two.  He only wanted one more!

A second later Joseph called me back and asked if I needed something.  "Well, actually yes, Lori called and asked if we would like to be considered for a two year old and a one year old.  What do you think?"  I hung up the phone very calmly even though wanted to scream...he said sure without any kind of hesitation.  THANK YOU JESUS! 

We're still waiting to hear from the placement worker of the two little girls to see if they would consider placing them in Southern California (they live in Sacramento).   We're praying that if our family is the "Forever Family" God has in mind for the girls that there forever family is just around the corner and that they will have a home for the holidays.


I'd like to say that things are getting easier and that waiting doesn't stink anymore but it does!  Some days are great while others are horrible!  Today we went to a baby shower for a friend of my husband's.  I cried on the way home...then I felt like a big jerk for not being happier for them.  I mean, not that I'm not happy for them.  It's just that baby showers have the ability to make me acutely aware of the fact that we are still waiting with no end date in mind.  Oh yea, In God's Perfect Time!  I get it God!   : )