God's up to something....

On November 20th Joseph and I attended an adoption fair.  We weren't going to go, in fact we had agreed to not go.  I had envisioned desperate parents and sad children.  Uhhh yea, no thank you.  We didn't want to be among the desperately seeking spawn. 

Anyhow, on Wednesday we woke up and new that we were suppose to go.  Joseph asked his boss if he could leave early and to our surprise he said yes.  I got a sub for my class and off we went.

I laughed when we got there because I knew all of the kids by name....a sign that I had obviously spent way too much time on the adoptable children web-sites.  Prior to going to the fair, I had seen these two girls on Wednesday's Child and said to Joseph that I thought they were cute.  "Too old! No!" 

We met Rebecca and Amy, two very cute sisters (the same sisters I had shown Joseph the week before) at the fair.  Immediately I was drawn to them.  We spent the rest of the afternoon hanging out with the girls and getting to know them.

We submitted our match request and guess what we were matched!!!!  Joseph and I were together when we got the e-mail saying we were in a match with the girls.  We both cried. Well, I sobbed, tears just rolled down his eyes.

What's next?!  Waiting and more waiting!  Will keep you all posted!

Here's the girls:  http://wednesdayschild.adopt.org/node/1144

New Found Hobby!

So, in an attempt to get my mind off of things I joined a scrap booking forum and found myself to be much more knowledgeable than I had originally thought.  Which seems to be the story of my life.  I never give myself enough credit for what I can actually do! 

So this last week, I found myself on my community suggesting Cricut cartridges to people who needed specific fonts and had asked for help!!  I had an answer AND was able to give suggestions because, while I'm not an expert (yet) in all things Cricut I love my machine and use it all the time! 

Here's where my worlds collide...not by accident I'm sure but by the hand of God!! 

This week on 10/20 we went to an adoption fair.  At first we were not going to attend because I had mixed feelings about the event.  People like Joseph and me go to these types of events to meet adoptable kids.  And kids who are able to be adopted attend to scope out parents.

We met these two sisters who melted our hearts and took us by surprise!  Our home study is for a single girl, under the age of five.  These girls are thirteen and nine!!  WAY older than we thought we would consider.....but as you know, sometimes what we have planned and what God has planned aren't always the same!!

So, with my new found hobby in hand I set out to put together a mini scrap book that can sent to our prospective child/ren in the event that we are placed.....can you guess who I asked for help in trying to decided what I should have in this scrap book?  That's right!!  My new on-line community, even learned that this mini scrap book can be turned into what is called a "Life Book" for our adopted child/ren when we are finally able to adopt! 

Passing time

So, in my quest to become more techie I've joined an online forum for scrapbookers.  It's been really interesting thus far and found that even though I am relatively new to scrapbooking...I'm pretty good at it!  Not great, but pretty decent!  I thought that navigating the in's and out's of an online community would be hard but well, I must be pretty smart too because it wasn't. : )  Not that I'm well on the way to becoming a scrap-master scrapbooker, I'm feeling pretty confident.  Having a Cricut helps a little I'm sure! I answered some questions that people had and was pretty proud of myself for putting myself out there ya know?

This has been kind of a de-stresser for me because we haven't gotten anywhere with our adoption yet...no calls, no prospective children....n o t h i n g!!! 

If you're a scrapbooker check out this forum:
http://www.scrapbook.com/forums/index.php

Finally got it!

A person whom I respect very much and love even more was very real yesterday.  She will never know how much she means to me and to my family.  There aren't a lot of people who are real with me, you know.  People always tell you what you want to hear not what you need to hear.  Everyone is always so worried about hurting your feelings or offending you.  Don't get me wrong, I don't want people to be mean to one another but constructive truth is important in our Christian walk!  PP was so truthful that I was almost hurt.  I wasn't hurt though, just thankful and blessed by it. 

PP, spoke about understanding God's love.  She said that when you truly understand God's love you'll "get it."  The things that are making you worry or anxious won't be important because you can rest in His perfect plan for your life, in His unfailing love.  There is so much going on in my life that is making me anxious that I lost sight of that.  She said, that I if truly understood God's love I'd understand that He has a plan for me, for Isaiah, for our family.  I thought, "Hey!!!  I DO understand what God's love is like!  What are you talking about?!"  I love her so very much and thought that I should just take in her words and ask the Holy Spirit to reveal it's truth to me.

Today, I have a greater peace than I've had in a long time.  I know that God has a perfect plan (Jeremiah 29:11) for me, for, Joseph, for Isaiah, for Ethan and for our daughter wherever she may be. 

Thanks PP for loving me enough to tell me the truth!! 

Nothing's Changed.......

This week was a rather quiet week!!  Nothing happened, well at least nothing in the natural.  No calls or e-mails from our social worker. Nothing, zero, zip, nada!  I think that's what makes this limbo so hard.  I know that Lori is busy, but I just wish she'd call or send me an e-mail to let me know that she hasn't heard anything.  Wishful thinking I'm sure.

I know God is working in the super-natural and that we won't always see what He's doing.  But, God is good and He is so faithful to remind us that He hasn't forgotten our silent prayers, or the longing of our hearts.

Last Sunday at church Bob L., held his hands out to me and in a very excited tone said, "you're almost due!" I teared up and thought, I knew I shouldn't have worn this shirt, I must look pregnant!  I fought back the tears and said, "I'm not pregnant." and he said, "Not in the natural, Teresa...but your time is coming!" 

Thanks Jesus for the confirmation that you're working behind the scenes!  Thank you Bob L. for giving me a word of encouragement!!  So we wait and wait and wait some more.